Update

Hey friends, I thought I should give you an update of all that is going on. It has been super busy around here which I LOVE by the way. My Mom was here for almost two weeks and that was a huge blessing. There is just nothing like having family around!!! I wish I could be with them every day but for now I will just have to embrace the time that I get. My mom was super helpful around the house and with Paisley of course. She is in love with sweet little Paisley! This was their first time meeting and it was super exciting. You can tell Paisley already loves her Grandma. I will have to say that I am a bit jealous of my moms ability to get Paisley to laugh. She makes it look too easy! I guess that is what Grandmas are for.

 My friend Erica also came for a week and that was also amazing. Friends like her don't come around often! I am so thankful for her and all my other amazing friends who have been here for me during this time. Even friends that I haven't spoke to for years. You all know who you are. You have sent my cards and gifts and most importantly you have prayed for me! Thank you all for that! Erica and Jackson got to meet Paisley and we had so much fun!!!! Erica is a great Mom and if your reading this Erica I now know everything I need to know about being a good Mother. I will sum it up with one word :Bananas!!! LOL I will never forget that moment. To all of you who don't know what I am talking about I am sorry it is our little secret!!<3 Erica left us just a few days ago and we are missing them already!!! Next time we hang out I will be Cancer Free!!! WOO HOO for that. And we must all go on a cruise to celebrate!!!!!!

 Chemo has been going about the same as it has been from the start. However I may be a little more tired than usual. Last time I had chemo that nasty Saline flush made my throw up. UUGHH Gross!! If any of you have any ideas for this problem PLEASE shoot them my way. I have my CAT scan in just a week or 2. I am so excited and nervous about this all at once. This will tell us how much longer I have to do Chemo. Its possible that I only have one more month. If this is the case I will be finished with Chemo on June 12th. I have claimed that for myself in the name of Jesus and I ask that you all pray for that on my behalf! as well. If I need to continue its most likely I will have until August 7th and we will know later if I need to undergo radiation. Praise God regardless because we have made it this far and I am feeling really good about it all but I will say that I can't wait for the day that I am falling on the floor thanking Jesus that its all over. Please pray that I continue to remain faithful and trust Him through this all.

 I feel like I am living in a dream. Its so crazy how like can just flip on you so quickly. I just praise God because I feel as if we got through some of the hardest times already. I am still amazed at the Peace God has given me from the beginning. It was all so scary but I was being held in the arms of my Father the entire time and He just calmed my spirit.

I have been a bit emotional the past few days. A few nights ago I started crying at Target in front Mr. muscles (the man ahead of me in line) and the cashier. I was trying to pick up my bleach and put it up on the belt and couldn't do it. The sweet man in front of me saw me struggling and put all of my items out of my basket up onto the belt. It was then that the lump in my throat began to swell. You know that feeling, the one where you try so hard not to and your throat begins to hurt so badly until you finally just give in. I tried so hard to fight it but it won. I think It was a combination of the kindness coming from the sweet man, the humility that it brought upon me and a little bit of frustration that I still can not do things alone. You would think as I get better things would get easier right?! I think the closer I am the more frustrated I become that I can't do things. Its so close I can taste it!! I remind myself that only a few months ago I was unable to shower alone, I barely had the strength to brush my teeth, I couldn't walk around freely and could barely hold my daughter. That puts things into perspective. When I was living those moments I would tell myself to always be thankful for the these things when they come to me again. I want to be thankful for all of the small things!!! May we all thank God for the things in our life that we feel as if we deserve or the things we take for granted. Thank God for voices to speak I love you, for legs to walk and play, hands to touch those we love and for ears and eyes to see and hear the beauty of everything around us. <3

 May is super busy for us as I got to celebrate my first Mothers day with my sweet Paisley. We went out to breakfast and spent the day with Gregs parents. On Wednesday May 16th Greg and I will celebrate out 3 year anniversary as well as Paisleys 4 month birthday. She has her 4 month check up and we have decide about those stinking shots!!! :( I also celebrate my 29th Birthday on the 20th!! How is it possible that I am almost 30 when I feel like I am 20!! So as you see we have a full month!!! So prayers would be appreciated!!! I will try to keep you posted on what is going. I have not been doing as well as I would like with that. I have just been having too much fun with all of my company!!! We LOVE company!! So if you want to get away and hang out with the sweetest baby then please feel free!! <3 I love you all so much!! Thank you for everything!!!

My Angel

I have to say that I never knew that a love like the love I feel for my sweet Paisley was humanly possible.(Aside from Christ of course) Yes, I love my husband and all of my family and friends but WOW it is just so different. I know that all children are gifts from God but my Paisley is truly an angel.

Not all of you know this but for many years I thought I couldn't have my own children. I was actually fine with the idea because I have always wanted to adopt and it just so happens that God gave me an amazing guy who also wanted to adopt. So Greg and I never did much to prevent our family from growing.....and for 2 years it worked! ;)

One year ago this month (April 2011) Greg and I visited a Vineyard church in the Phoenix area. We loved it and returned again for a second time. On the second Sunday that we attended they did things a bit different . They had a time of ministry and listening prayer. We all prayed and the few who felt they had specific words for people stood at the front and spoke the words they felt God wanted them to share. As I sat there I just knew God was about to do something in me. I could feel it and I almost argued with Him that I was too tired and that I didn't know these people. "God , I don't feel like crying in front off all of these people as you do something in me". That's sounds so ridiculous but I know some of you know where I am coming from. As God changes you or works in you it can be draining!!! Always worth it of course!

One man stood and said that someone in the congregation was having stomach pains. "UGGHH really Lord?!?! Yes, that was me. I had been experiencing pain in my lower stomach for months and did not know what the problem was. So a certain lady came and prayed with me. I thought she would pray for healing for my stomach and be done with it but NO....that is not what happened. She began to pray for my ability to have children and for my future family. I was thinking to myself "Why is she praying for these things". I don't know why but it struck something in me. I left that day and told Greg how I was feeling about her prayer and how it just caught me off guard and I knew that God was up to something!

A few weeks later we were at church again and I was watching this little girl dance as we worshiped and I could not take my eyes off of her. It was happening.....I wanted a little girl!!! I have always said I wanted all boys. From my experience they are so much easier and there is way less drama involved. I have nieces that I love dearly and even so I wanted boys (maybe 1 girl...maybe. But she would have to be the youngest so that she grew up with big brothers to protect her and to toughen her up!!)

Well friends, on May 4th at exactly 4:47 am I discovered that I was carrying child. I will never forget this moment. Greg was outside loading the car with my luggage to drop me off at the airport. I was surprising my mom for her 60th birthday. I really was just taking a test to prove to myself that I wasn't pregnant because I can't get pregnant! I just figured I would toss it in the trash and be on my way lol. Wow, how life can change in a moment. I am learning a lot about that these days. Anyway, I waited those loooonnng 5 minutes and I was shocked at the result. I stared at that thing for like 2 minutes saying "Oh my gosh, Oh my gosh, Oh my gosh" LOL. I then carried it outside to give Greg the news. By the way, he had no clue I was even taking the test. We were both shocked that early morning. He hugged me as I cried and told me that we would be great parents! As we drove to the airport I was convinced that something was wrong with that test. I held it in my hands and stared at it the whole way to the airport. (HAHA now that I think about it, that test was still in the car when Greg picked me up from the airport!)

I text me sister in law as I freaked out. She immediately called me back. I could tell she was so excited but was trying to be sensitive to the state of shock that I was currently in. She had a pregnancy test waiting for my when she picked me up from the airport that day. I swear I couldn't take enough of those tests to convince me that I was indeed with child. Well Mom, Surprise!!! Happy Birthday!! Oh yeah, Surprise your going to be a grandma again!!! <3

It is important for you all to know the miracle that Paisley is. I got pregnant the week after that girl prayed over me. That very next week!!!!! God blows me away! The week I was staring at that little girl at church desiring my very own little girl, Paisley was being formed in my womb. There is more too!!!! As most of you know 4 weeks after she was born I was in the emergency room with back pain that ended up being a tumor on my spine. I had an emergency surgery on Valentines day to remove the tumor and 5 days later found out that I had Hodgkins lymphoma. The day I found out that the tumor was cancerous the Doctor also told me I would have to undergo chemotherapy and that I would no longer be able to have children. The first reaction to this was to become very sad but the big picture was brought to my mind and instead I became very thankful. See friends God orchestrated this all so perfectly. I believe that God knew that I had cancer and he knew I would go through chemo therapy and because He is a loving God and Father who desires to give his children good gifts, he gave me Paisley. I hadn't planned for Paisley but God had. He gave her to me in perfect timing. The doctor told me I could no longer have kids and I was just so thankful that God had already given me my miracle..... my angel...Paisley. She IS an angel you know. She is what gets me through every single day. I am so blessed!!! God gave me such a beautiful gift!! I urge you all to use your eyes to see the gifts around you and to allow yourself to see the big picture in your very own lives. God is painting me such a beautiful picture and I don't think I would see it as clearly if I weren't experiencing life as I am right in this moment. <3

Love and Blessings!!!

Velcro

So about a week ago I cried for the first time for a reason that had anything to do with the "C" word. That's right I never cried over the news!! Some of you may think that is crazy or maybe even insincere. I assure you however that is not the case. For any of you looking for a "logical" answer I apologize ahead of time for I have no "logical" answer to give you. You see the only answer to this is GOD HIMSELF. Gods word states the following:

Philippians 4:6-9
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And THE PEACE OF GOD, which TRANSCENDS ALL UNDERSTANDING, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.

WOW!!!!! Can I just say that never in my life have I understood these words more than I do right now?!?! HA Talk about having a peace that makes absolutely no sense at all. Its pretty stinking amazing when you feel something so strongly that only God can provide you with. I could probably tear these verses apart and tell you all about how they are very alive and real for me right now. "Whatever you have learned or received from me....PUT IT INTO PRACTICE!!! Well I have learned and received and heard and seen A LOT and I want to put it into practice! It starts with this amazing peace that I hold. I wouldn't want a single one of you to walk the path I am walking however the peace is incredible!!!!

It is very important that you all know about my peace because that gives God glory and that is what must happen during this time in my life or it has no purpose to me! Anyway, back to the crying......it started when my hair was falling out. I thought I was prepared and ready. I mean its "just" hair right?! Well,the idea of it "just" being hair slipped from my grip when I showered and watched my hair wash slowly down the drain or when simply brushing it filled the sink. That's when it became very real to me. I realized later that the reason it bothered me so much was because up until this moment no one who saw me knew I had "C" . They saw me as a healthy young woman. But after the hair is gone everyone will know. That was hard for me until I talked to God a little about it and was refocused at the fact that God wanted me to shout my story from the rooftops and if I am walking around bald.....I don't even have to say anything! I am a walking testimony! God also reminded me that I needed to lose my hair! Of course He was right. In order for me to be able to be an encouragement to others who have gone through or will go through what I am going through I needed that aspect of the journey. It is a fact that for most woman the hardest part of this journey is losing their hair. So after crying for a few days and watching my hair fall out everywhere and on everything I decided enough is enough. I am taking control of the situation.I told Greg that I needed to shave my head before my next shower LOL. So at that point I had about a day and half to spare;) I even wrapped my hair up before church and said "I am not wearing my hair anymore!. I keep telling myself I need one more day with my hair, I am not ready and its just making it harder." So I got all strong and proud and wrapped up my hair and got ready for church.....its actually funny now because I ended up taking that wrap off my head before church. I just couldn't do it.

So Monday was the big day but I had a few things to do before then. For one I wanted a family photo with hair so we did that. (only to later find out there was a fingerprint on the lens for all the pictures!!! AARRRGGG) I will post them later and tell you that there is an angel in all of our pictures! <3

Monday flew by. We went shopping for scarves and went to dinner with the family and took more pictures of course. Afterwards we went home and I continued to put the shaving party off. I even fell asleep on the couch until 11:30 only to wake up dreading the inevitable. At that point Greg got the clippers ready and said it was time. We went to the bathroom and I got a hold of the scissors not even believing what I was about to do. I just started chopping at my hair!!! Then, my friends it happened......JOY came over me. My scary experience was no longer scary. It suddenly became this crazy fun event and I am happy to say I haven't cried a tear since. That's right, no sadness, no insecurities NOTHING. Now one of the hardest mountains of this journey is behind me and it feels good to have climbed it. It was a liberating night. So all of you please just thank God for His goodness in all of this because He is continually at work!!! Don't be sad for me but look at my head and thank God for all of those whom He will somehow touch through this journey we are on!!! I love you all so much!!!! Also, to you dear friends who have taken extreme measures to help support me. You have no idea how much that means to me. KAT.....you shaved your head before I had the gumption to do so. Thank you for pushing me and making me stronger!!!

P.S My hair feels like velcro ;)

More to come....

To all of you...my dear friends and family,

Wow are we on a journey!! Never in my life did I see myself sitting where I am at this very moment and I don't mean on the couch in my living room! ;) As most of you know I was recently diagnosed with Hodgkins Lymphoma. I know right??!! Surprise!! We all (or most) of us know this kind of stuff NEVER happens to us!!! If it does happen to people close to us or anyone in our circle or community of people I can now say that we have no clue what it feels like. No one can know what it feels like to sit in these shoes. Not unless it was you yourself who has walked in them. During this next year I want to share with you all of my story and my experiences not because I decided to but because while I sat in my hospital bed waiting to leave the hospital....before I even knew I had cancer God told me to "shout your story from the rooftops and to be bold about Me and My Love for My people". I had a wake up call about life and how much of a beautiful gift that it is and THEN I found out I had cancer. WHAT?!?!? That seems backwards right? Its true though God was preparing me for the words that I would soon hear and those words changed my life even more!!!!! God has clearly shown me that I am going through this and through HIM it will serve a great purpose. He desires me to allow Him to be seen in a great and mighty way through all of this and that His love be poured down on His people. He wants to use this situation to draw people to their kness and cry out to HIM!!! He wants to show HIS faithfulness to us. He wants us to know what it means to truly trust in Him. I want you all to know that I will be sharing my story from the beginning and it will begin with the birth of my beautiful sweet Paisley Mae. Please be patient as I share the pieces of a beautiful story that you won't understand until the picture is being painted for you. I will tell you now that GOD IS SO GOOD and He has orchestrated my circumstances in the most perfect way!!! Be ready to be blown away at how much God loves us and cares so much about the details of our life. I love you all so much and have been so encouraged by your sweet words and your promises to pray for me. I ask that you continue to do so as we travel this road together. Blessings on all of you and you will be hearing from me again very soon.<3

A love letter

These last few months have been CRAZY but I don't mean crazy in the sense of chaos or being super busy and hectic. I mean crazy as in totally uncomfortable and different than what I have ever experienced. You have to understand where I am coming from....

For the past 10 years I have been completely covered in love by people around me and drenched in encouragement and fellowship. In High school it was West Hill Baptist church and all of the amazing people and mentors God put in my life as I grew into the young lady God desired for me to be. People like the Hamiltons, The Price Family, the Craycraft Family, the Carpenter Family, the Davenport family, the Miller family, the Chambers, the Livingstons, the Heinys.......seriously I wish I could name you all. I didn't even mention the friends that walked with me daily through my struggles and the newness of what being a Christ Follower meant. Friends like Rachel Chambers, Ashley Cherilla, Cody Davenport, Josh Saefkow, Stephanie King....and the list continues ;) God only knows how your love helped carry me through some very hard times in my life. No matter what was going on I always felt loved and I had encouragement coming out of my ears. So thank you for all of you who loved me beyond measure.

Then I went from Wooster Ohio to a place called Lynchburg VA to attend Liberty University to become a "champion for Christ" and one of "Jerrys kids" (That term now puts a smile on my face.) WOW I had no idea what I was getting myself into. College was such an amazing experience. God taught me so much about life and love and what it meant to walk with Christ. I learned so much about His word and how to replicate it in my life. Not only was God teaching me about living through his word but he blessed me with so many amazing brothers and sisters in Christ that I was able to watch implement Christ daily in their lives. What an honor and privilege that was. I would love to list you all and give you the credit you deserve...not to give you glory of course but to honor you for being open to being used by the Lord. Liberty was such a great time in my life. God showed me things that I would never dream of. He showed me a life I would never think possible for myself. He gave me visions and dreams that I never thought possible.
College was simply amazing and I wouldn't trade it for ANYTHING...debt and all! (well, I would give up the debt but would also pay it again if I had to)

After College......same goes. The Lord kept people in my life and gave me great new friends and community as well. I lived with some awesome girls in a house outside of Lynchburg. I love you Athena, Heather, Josie, Amber and last but not least Patches. This was interesting:) Oh how I miss you guys!! We had some amazing times. This was a new stage in my life spiritually. God began to shed light on some very dark areas of my life. Past hurts that I never realized were even effecting my daily life. He gave me an awesome friend to share all of this in.....Patches. Wow, how the enemy tried to break us apart for God would be glorified had we remained friends. But with all Glory to God we stood strong and God rocked our world BIG TIME!!!!!
We both found healing through faith in Jesus. Healing that would forever change us. I was freed from bondage that was holding me down. It all started by obeying the Spirit of the Lord telling me to walk into an office of a man I didn't know named Alistair McPherson. This is the phase in my life when I learned what it truly meant to fight against the "rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms"


I had learned so much in the previous years as I grew in the Lord but somewhere the realness of the daily spiritual battle we fight got lost. I thank God for this very difficult time in my life where he let me look a demon in the eye and say FLEE FROM HERE!!! I was FOREVER CHANGED. The world was different to me after that. I could see a different type of beauty in life. <3 A big thank you to all of those who allowed God to be glorified in this. In all these years mentioned God also allowed me to travel to different countries and taught me so much through that as well. He showed me what my future could look like. He gave me a glimpse of what He desired for my life. Nothing mundane or complacent.....no way. He desired something RADICAL, something that would change the World and I would like to say that I said "Here I am send me" especially after seeing God in all his Glory. Eventually I did GO.....I went to the Middle East and God continued once again to prune me.....and it hurt. I like to call this phase of my life "DETOX OF SELF" You know.....I just mentioned it.....God showing you himself in all of His fullness.....and then you realizing " "

"Woe is me! for I am undone; because I am a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips: for mine eyes have seen the King, the LORD of hosts."

It was that kind of season for me....I felt like that nearly every day. But lets not forget that the Lord doesn't leave us like that.......

Then flew one of the seraphims unto me, having a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with the tongs from off the altar:And he laid it upon my mouth, and said, Lo, this hath touched thy lips; and thine iniquity is taken away, and thy sin purged.
Isaiah 6:6-7


THANK YOU LORD FOR THAT!!!! What an awesome time for me.I met amazing people from all over the world and made lifetime friends. So much love and so much encouragement was given during this time. What more can one ask for?!?! During this time words were also spoken over me time and again. One being that I would meet my husband <3 WOW, who would have thought?!?!?!? I am now Mrs. Tompkins so Glory to God for that!!!!

Then a brief time in Ohio Thank you Nussbaum family as well as all my family in Ohio.
Then a year in Virginia with the Baileys, the Frasers, Patches Fuller, Melissa Arcand, the Arthurs, the Gregorys, the Crosiers, the Q family, the Mcphersons, All Souls and One Community. Such a short time with great friends.I love you and miss you all SO MUCH!!!

Then our 1 month road trip on the way to AZ=AWESOMENESS

Now to my point. ARIZONA: My new home. Living with the in-laws, buying a house, Greg is going to culinary school and LOVING IT!!! I know we are where we are suppose to be for now but it is so STINKING HARD!!!!!! As you have seen in the history of the past 11 years of my life I have been flooded with amazing people at all times........Now, not so much...and that is what I mean when I say it has been uncomfortable and "crazy" It has been so different than what I have known for soooo long.

The Walmart run that should have only taken 15 minutes but ended up being 2 hours is now very much missed. Welcomed interruptions while reading at a local coffee shop.....those don't happen anymore. Familiar faces as you walk through town or honks from friends while running down Rivermont AVE. These are now just sweet memories. All of this is so incredibly sad for me. I miss community, long talks, coffee with friends,bible studies, dinner with friends and game nights.
All of this change has been difficult for me. It is now time to make new friends and find new community.

This has all made me think about the things we take for granted. And I assure you that your friendships mean the world to me and I am ever so grateful.

Arizona is wonderful and I have one friend who enjoys my company (I think) Thank you Kelly Ray.

And thank you to my wonderful husband who would do anything to make me happy. I feel that I don't deserve him at times. I am so happy that he is fulfilling a desire and dream to become an amazing Chef for the soul purpose of loving God and sharing Gods love to others in a very real and practical way. Of course my in-laws have also been amazing and opened there home to us for a time in order to continue to save for our house. We are indeed blessed.

I am totally outside my comfort zone. I at one time thought that I could be anywhere and be comfortable. I am now proven wrong. Now another lesson to learn: Being completely content with Christ...and no one else. I am pretty sure I have learned this before! But here I am again. You would think that I would have kept that hidden in my heart the first time right?!?!? Prayers would be appreciated.

Blessings and Love to you all
and a Big Thanks for you have ALL made my life so wonderful and have taken part in shaping the person I am today.

THANKSGIVING

Thanksgiving,

What an awesome time of year you are in. We have the awesome crisp air to breath in boots to wear and scarves to adorn our necks. I am a big fan. I would also like to mention the amazing additive of pumpkin to any and every dish. I should also give a big shout out to all the spices that actually give pumpkin the spice it needs to be so amazingly flavorful! We cannot forget about sweet potato pie and sweet potato casserole. Yum! The food is an also an amazing part of Thanksgiving. I think we would all agree on that as well.

My favorite part of Thanksgiving is always family and friends. This is by far the best part for me. With out family and friends none of the other attributes that come with Thanksgiving would bring me so much joy.

That is why I write today. This Thanksgiving I was so thankful for my family and friends......though most of them were not in my presence they were in my thoughts more than ever. I love thanksgiving with my family. As crazy as we can be it just feels good to be all together. Yes, there may be loud voices and the smell of cigarettes which by the way I HATE. It may be hectic and crazy with over drinking family members and kids running around and sometimes arguing. None of us are perfect and we are all very different but together we are family and it is beautiful. So, I'm not going to say I missed the smokey smell that lingers on my clothes and hair for days and all the drama that can come with the reuniting of family but I will say that I would have rather had it than not. ;) Thank you Lord for family and not just any family but the beautiful and colorful family you gave me!!!

Dear Family,
I love you and I miss you. I love that we are so close and make a big deal out of a special day. I have a lot to be thankful for but your are by far first on my list!

Thankful we will be all together next year!

Distance makes the heart grow fonder

We all know the saying "distance makes the heart grow fonder".

I can say that right now being thousands of miles away from some of the most important people in my life this rings very true in my life.

My heart was so blessed a few days ago by a note I was tagged in on facebook. It was a conversation that my nephew Korben was involved in. He is only six and he has no idea what his precious thoughts and words meant to me but they were such a blessing. (Thank you so much Janet for sharing them with me )

Korbens conversation with Mom Janet:

After dinner tonight we were sitting at the table talking and Korben (who just turned 6) says......."Mom, why don't you give me money?" If you want me to give you money you have to do chores for it? "What's chores?" Feed the dog, give her water, keep your room clean, stuff like that. " Oh, OK" ( as he's filling the dog's food bowl). I'll water her so you don't spill it. "No I can" (as he drips water across the kitchen). Fills it half full and takes it back (dripping all the way.) Gets the towel and cleans it up too!). "What else?" You done with your plate? "Yep." (Takes the plate, rinses it, AND puts it in the dishwasher.) By the time we were done talking about chores the kitchen was done! Korben, what are you going to do with your money? "Put it in my bank and save it." Good deal, what are you going to buy with it? "I want to save it so we can go to Arizona so I can see Aunt Amber." GAVE HIM A DOLLAR!

I KNOW!!!! How precious is that?!?! I love my nephew and how beautiful it is that he would want to spend his hard earned money to come and see me. I hope that when he is a teenager he still feels the same way ;)

So first off, I need to thank God for the blessing and how He loves us through people. I know that was God himself loving me through Korben. It was a love letter straight from God himself.

All day I have been thinking about the whole idea of how distance makes the heart grow fonder and how I miss my friends and family so much. Then it dawned on me how much I miss the Lord. I know, I know, your thinking He is always with me but what you don't know as that I am not always "being" in His presence.
I don't know about you but I don't want distance from the Lord to make my heart grow fonder. I want sitting in his lap everyday to make my heart grow fonder. There is something about tasting the Lords goodness. Once you have, it is never satisfying to be distant. Something is always eating away at you. Something always feels as if it is missing. Life is just a little off beat.

I asked myself today. DO you think the Lord needs a love letter from you? A reminder of how much I miss him too? Just as I was blessed by knowing how much my nephew misses me I think the Lord wants that from me as well.

He wants me to save up all my "dollars" to spend time with him. ;)
This is so juvenile and simple, I know.

But sometimes that's what we need. A "simple" reminder.

May we sit with the Lord daily and listen to Him as He speaks. May we give him all our "dollars" or time or whatever it is he wants from us.

Thank you Father

and thank you Korben!

Blessings, from another child <3